As the last of the wreckage falls around the crashing waves of the raging sea, the sand began to rumble around me. It was a gentle, almost comforting vibration that seeped into the sand in-between my feet. The pitch-black night was distant, but the overbearing brightness of the sunset had finally died. Nightfall would soon begin to overcome me, it would engulf the world that surrounded me and the crashing waves was going to be a siren song. The final thing I would hear before the near-endless black would fall upon me, shadowing both the sun and all life on Earth.
I was still recovering from the showcase on Friday and wanted to do something a little different with my Misc. Monday. I wanted to just bring upon to the audience, a higher power of music. Something that taps into the methods of relaxation and something that doesn’t need over-analyzed like my usual Monday’s. I worked to put on this show for last Friday and I feel as though I don’t deserve any breaks, and I am not… but I just wanted to instead focus on some sort of recuperating for any one that came out and supported me. Sounds Of Isha is something I discovered a few months ago and have been going back to more and more as I begin to mature and understand the tides of life shifting around me. This post is not going to be a reoccurring thing, but I do need to get some new styles of music up on the site. I will not start doing reviews of country music or noise, but I might shift it up a little and start doing more new music than old music. My Misc. Day might become obsolete, or even my Classic Day as I feel that they are fun to write about and they do give me a sense of gratuity when I finish; however, I am at a stage in my life where I must take a professional stance, and a less-professional, more approachable stance. I will never write like I wear a suit and tie, I will never start selling out, and I sure as hell am not going to stop performing/producing shows.
I was happy with how the last showcase turned out, I was slightly disappointed in the numbers; but the quality is always more important than quantity. There are going to be incredible and immaculate changes in my life coming, I personally thank anyone that has stuck by side, reading these either sporadically or every single post. Putting on showcases and writing is something that I work on everyday and while I am no where near where I want to be, Matt’s Music Mine has connected me with artists and people that I would have never been able to share a spotlight with. People I would have never been able to speak with, meet, or even call my friends. That is why, I will continue to find new music, continue to find music that people need to listen to. This is all I have left; I have nothing else in my life that I want to do as a career path.
This Industry will spit you out, chew you up, take everything from you, and reuse you until you are emotionally and physically drained. I am working everyday to not crush those around me, but to instead lift them up and give them a platform that they would have never had before. I am no martyr; I am nothing more than an incredibly lonely kid with an inseparable love for music. Music has always been a coping mechanism for me, it has always been the thing that I am able to use to make the sun shine brighter, the rain last a little longer, and to make my life more bearable. This isn’t a diary and I know that I am beginning to ramble, but as Matt’s Music Mine turned One this year, I wanted to at least say that I am truly grateful for those who worked with me and the people in the future that I can work with. You know who you are…
I will say once again, I am going to keep doing this until my bones are eventually grinded back to the refined powder and I am whisked away by the wind, there is no obstacle too great, no barrier too bold, no person that can stand in my way. I have a small, but humbling following now… And I can’t wait to see where I am next year at this time, two years from this time, ten years from this time.
More good things on the way and the P.M.A… That Positive Mental Attitude will lead me in the right direction, The odds are stacked against me, but I will eventually succeed. And Sounds Of Isha’s, In The Lap Of The Master is something I listen to, in order to understand the things in my mind. To try and make sense of some of the problems on my brain, Thank you again… and it is nowhere but UP from here.